POETRY OF MY FRIENDS

MY NAME IS SHAME
I LIVE INSIDE OF YOU

WHATEVER YOU SAY
WHATEVER YOU DO

IS NOT GOOD ENOUGH

MY NAME IS SHAME
I LIVE IN YOUR MIND

I AM NOT SWEET
NOR AM I VERY KIND

I CAUSE YOU TO FEEL
THAT YOU HAVE NO
SELF WORTH

YOU DIDN’T KNOW ME
THE DAY OF YOUR BIRTH

I CAME MUCH LATER
I THINK YOU WERE TWO

I SAW IT IN YOUR EYES
YOU WERE SAD AND SO BLUE

IT WAS THEN THAT I KNEW
I WOULD TAKE OVER YOUR SOUL

AND ALL THAT I LEFT
WAS A DEEP DARK BLACK HOLE

MY NAME IS SHAME
I LIVE INSIDE OF YOU

WHATEVER YOU SAY
WHATEVER YOU DO

IS NOT GOOD ENOUGH

I MURDERED YOUR SPIRIT
WHEN HE TOUCHED YOU
THAT DAY

THERE WAS NOTHING
YOU COULD DO

THERE WAS NOTHING
YOU COULD SAY

YOU WERE ONLY THREE
A SAD LITTLE GIRL

LONELY AND FORGOTTEN
ALONE IN THE WORLD

I ENTERED YOUR LIFE
NO SAFE PLACE COULD
YOU FIND

I INVADED YOU BODY
I INVADED YOUR MIND

I CAUSE YOU TO FEEL SO
EMPTY INSIDE

A PAIN THAT’S SO DEEP
YOU WISH YOU HAD DIED

MY NAME IS SHAME
I AM FELT AT THE CORE

I SET YOU UP TO THINK
YOU WERE A WHORE

THE DAY THAT HE TOUCHED
YOU

WAS THE DAY THAT I SAW
I COULD DO DAMAGE
AND SO VERY MUCH MORE

YOU HAVE NO PLACE TO RUN
I AM EVERTHING YOU FEEL

YOU WERE SEXUALLY ABUSED, IT’S
REALLY NO BIG DEAL

YOUR RAGE, YOUR ANGER
STUFF THEM AS WELL

YOU’RE A VERY BAD CHILD
AND I AM YOUR HELL

I LOVE TO MAKE YOU CRY
AND FEEL SO VERY SAD

I LOVE TO MAKE YOU ANGRY
AND I LOVE TO MAKE YOU MAD

I THEN I TELL YOU YOUR FEELINGS
THEY ARE WRONG

THAT YOU BASICALLY ARE NOTHING
THAT YOU DON’T BELONG

I AM UGLY AND SO DEVIOUS
A THORN IN YOUR SIDE

AND ALL YOU CAN DO
IS RUN AWAY AND HIDE

I’M YOUR WORST NIGHTMARE
I AM THERE WHEN YOU SLEEP

I AM THERE WHEN YOU CRY
I AM YOUR TEARS WHEN YOU WEEP

BUT YOU NEED ME FOR NOW UNTIL
YOU CAN SEE

THAT MY PURPOSE IS USELESS
ONLY THEN I’LL BE SET FREE

NEVER TO RETURN AND ENTER
YOUR SOUL

UNCOVERING THE LIES
THE TRUTH WILL UNFOLD

MY NAME IS SHAME
I LIVE IN YOUR MIND

I AM NOT SWEET NOR AM
I VERY KIND

JEANETTE  A. ROGERS
APRIL 2004